I hurt today. I mixed too much last night I think. 

But it was totally worth it, Jason was completely surprised. Not to mention it was a blast. He was so funny. We went to dinner and he said "Yeah all of my friends kind of ditched out but that's okay..." Hahahah little did he know they were all at his house decorating. Alexis got him this adorable little cake and I shoved it in his face. Then he kissed me and I was covered in icing. The upside is that the blue icing didn't stain our faces. The downside is that Jason being covered in icing and cake attracted Wes, who is flamboyantly gay, to try and lick it all off of him. Definitely a highlight of the evening :]. That and dancing with Barack Obama. And by Barack Obama I mean Anthony's cardboard cut-out of Barack Obama. 

I don't know why, but I feel like writing today.

I don't know if Jason reads this, I doubt it though, I never told him I had one. 

It's weird that my parents have been divorced my entire life, and continuously argued until a few years ago. It's weirder that Jason is in almost the same situation right now. I can look back and remember how every girl my dad even went on a date with I immediately met, and most of them were bitches. He didn't even ask my mom if it was okay, or if she minded all of these random women around their daughter. And then I think about how I've affected Jason's relationship with Stacy, and his relationship with Kamille. Jason was cautious about me meeting Kamille, as was I. I do not, nor have I ever had even close to a good relationship with my stepmother. Now, I understand that Jason and I are no where near getting married, but by meeting Kamille I will have an influence on her life if I am around her. Part of me understands why Jason didn't tell Stacy, because he didn't want to make her upset. But the other part of me thinks it would have been better if he had been straight with her. Especially since I did meet Kamille, Stacy should have been given the choice to say whether or not she wanted me to be around her daughter. For now, it seems, Stacy wants me to not be around Kamille until Jason and I have been dating a while longer, which is understandable. However, I don't think that Stacy has given Jason that choice when it came to men she dated being around Kamille. I guess not everything will be fair.

I am so exhausted but I need to take a shower and get ready for my tutoring meeting.